The End Of The World As We Know It

Sad, really down. Finding it hard to even get out of bed.

They say the road to hell is paved with good intentions, I can vouch for that.
You give you life, your heart, your soul, to someone and then when it is gone, you have no reason to be. You are weighed down with responsibility and all you can think of is your loss.
You wonder if you ever really mattered, if it would make any difference if you simply ceased to be.
Maybe it would, maybe it would make a difference for the better.

You regret things you did, yet find out you were lied to, deceived far more than you ever realised.
Then you finally understand, you never really mattered at all. It didn't matter how much you loved, how much you gave, you never mattered, just what they got from you, what you did for them, that is all that was important.

And all that time they were lying to you too.