I wish you well.

There comes a time when no matter how much you care for someone and how much you want to help them, you need to step back.
When you need to go into self-preservation mode and realise you can't save them from themselves, all you are doing is leaving yourself open for more pain. Realise they don't want you in their life, they just want you to want to be.
You see them becoming the opposite of what they were (or at least what you thought they were) and want to scream STOP what are you doing, turning into?
So you take a deep breath and try to understand, by making comparisons with the young high school boys here, knowing the age difference between the countries is huge. Make excuses for them, of well they missed out on a lot, so is doing/acting/living it now. Try not to condemn them for their actions.
All you are left with is hope, hope they will survive and grow and mature. Become the person you always thought they were, the person you loved. Wish them well and let them work through it on their own. Hope they stop mistaking someone showing an interest and thinking it must be love.
But you can no longer help them, not that they want your help anymore. You can no longer keep reaching out in friendship, only to be shot down for caring.
All you can do is tell them " fly far and free and may all of your wishes and dreams come true".


You will always hold a special place in my heart but I need to leave you there, tucked safely in a corner. I need to let you stuff up and fail and learn, all on your own. I need to back away and let you grow up and learn to do it on your own or face the consequences if you don't.

I need to learn how to put myself first and stop letting you hurt me over and over. I need to learn to not care.

So, Fly far and free <3