Over the SSDB
Over the only are nice when you think I am over you
Over trying to be nice, to be shit on
Over the bullshit
Over it
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Epiphany
Epiphany -a sudden, intuitive perception of or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience.
You ever have that moment of total blinding clarity? Like being slapped in the face by a wet fish.
When you realise that someone is absolutely nothing like you thought they were, you see the true them. I am talking about the inner person, someone you thought you knew better then they did themself.
Someone who thinks they can go on taking you for granted no matter what, the clarity hits- if they think that, they don't care about you at all, did they ever? Or was it an easy option for them?
You wonder about all you did for them, now it is like it never existed, they got this far on their own. Ask, they will tell you.
You think about the hard work, the sacrifices, the support you gave. Funny how they can manage so well now, did they ever really need it or was it just easier for them?
Or have they found a new fool, one who I am sorry to say, may never realise the use to which she was put. May never realise that at times she is thought of with nothing but contempt.
Funny how they now seem to be able to afford so much, when before they could afford nothing.
They say that love is blind but sooner or later no matter how deeply you love, what you would be willing to forgive, you have that moment of stunning blinding clarity.
Love can only survive without nourishment for so long, even less when it is being starved.
You feel it withering and wish that some miracle could fix it but know that won't happen.
All you can do is put the years and the hurt and pain down to a very hard, bitter, lesson learnt.
They say the one you love the most, is the one who can inflict the worst possible pain.
Well, kudos to them for hurting more than anyone in my whole life.
So, you go on and take the lesson you have learnt and stay safe, never willing to risk such pain again, knowing no one else could cause it but still, no longer willing to take that risk. Rely on yourself, you won't let yourself down, if you never give your heart, it can't be trampled.
I am a rock, I am an island ..
You ever have that moment of total blinding clarity? Like being slapped in the face by a wet fish.
When you realise that someone is absolutely nothing like you thought they were, you see the true them. I am talking about the inner person, someone you thought you knew better then they did themself.
Someone who thinks they can go on taking you for granted no matter what, the clarity hits- if they think that, they don't care about you at all, did they ever? Or was it an easy option for them?
You wonder about all you did for them, now it is like it never existed, they got this far on their own. Ask, they will tell you.
You think about the hard work, the sacrifices, the support you gave. Funny how they can manage so well now, did they ever really need it or was it just easier for them?
Or have they found a new fool, one who I am sorry to say, may never realise the use to which she was put. May never realise that at times she is thought of with nothing but contempt.
Funny how they now seem to be able to afford so much, when before they could afford nothing.
They say that love is blind but sooner or later no matter how deeply you love, what you would be willing to forgive, you have that moment of stunning blinding clarity.
Love can only survive without nourishment for so long, even less when it is being starved.
You feel it withering and wish that some miracle could fix it but know that won't happen.
All you can do is put the years and the hurt and pain down to a very hard, bitter, lesson learnt.
They say the one you love the most, is the one who can inflict the worst possible pain.
Well, kudos to them for hurting more than anyone in my whole life.
So, you go on and take the lesson you have learnt and stay safe, never willing to risk such pain again, knowing no one else could cause it but still, no longer willing to take that risk. Rely on yourself, you won't let yourself down, if you never give your heart, it can't be trampled.
I am a rock, I am an island ..
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